pictureofhappiness

 I took out at the Citrus park a couple of weeks ago with my dad… I think it looks kinda cool!

I have begun training to hold a small group (womens) in my home I’m really excited to see how God will work in it.

I really hope he will really work in me, and the other women.

My hope for the group is not only discussing the topics of ther sermons, but to really create a place that we can really open up.

It breaks my heart to think of women coming to service very close to tears or feeling alone. Of all places! I on to many occassions have felt this and continue to do so. However, I must admit there has been progress in this thanks to someone really going out of there to way to listen when they can see I am oviously upset!

(YOu know who you are…..right? well you should Leah), Thank-you!.

Although, I am blessed and greatful for this progress the feelings are still real.

In this progression of me actually opening up to someone and the time of having a womens small group in my home.

I really pray for healing with my own issues to start to happen, that I become able to step out of my own saddness enough to perseve other women with a saddness. That are new or have been coming to church for awhile, and allthough they continue to do so because they DO believe in the LORD. May not have for what ever reason the opportunity to establish relationships.

The kind you are able to get the stuff that brings you saddness and weighs heavy of your heart, and not to be afraid to do it!

Sometimes those things for women may not be that serious and sometimes they are very serious! and unfortunalty, as much as women feel they would like to be able to help another hurting soul, they may see anothers turmoil as trivial. They may see the solutions as apparent and ovious.

Which is why it is hard for people to open up -will be judge by the stronger women! or at least the stronger ones until something happens to them and that they need to talk about.

I am just writing about somethings I feel ,concerns and changes I would hope to have in myself

I know GOD doesn’t promise us there wont be hardships and thats ok! I have in the past gotten through things and I will again. I just would like for this time I  don’t just get trough it and life goes on kinda of thing…. I would really like to be that helpful,compassionate,motivates person I have always felt was hiding in me somewhere…..